Should I have kissed her?
Hi there,
I've been talking to an old friend recently, I've known her for around 7 years now and I've liked her for as long as I remember. More recently though we were saddened by the news that two of our friends from school had passed away. At the fist funeral I was stood atop a hill overlooking the cemetery when the coffin was being lowered and some speeches were being made, and she took my arm and stood close to me. I never thought much of it, under the circumstances I thought she probably just needed an arm like I did. After the wake of the second funeral we went back to a friends house with some other close friends from school, it was a bit cramped and she came straight across the room and sat with me on the arm of my chair (a bit to my surprise). After a while though she said she wanted to go for a walk and asked if I wanted to join her, which I did. So we left our friends and once outside she took my arm as we walked, she seemed happy and giggly. After a short while we came to an old abandoned Santa Clause land, which had a strange beauty and isolation about it. After we had looked around a little, we stood looking at the building and she hugged me, well, more embraced me. She put her arm around my back and rested her head on my chest, her other hand also resting on my chest. Periodically she would squeeze harder, pressing into me, or moving her hand up and down my side a bit. We stood like that for what felt like some time and after a while she leaned up and kissed me gently on the cheek before embracing me again, not long after that she straightened the hug and put both arms around my shoulder's squeezing firmly before moving out of the hug. I wanted to kiss her so badly in that moment, I ran my hand down her arm to hand as she moved out if the hug and we looked at each other for few seconds, I got nervous though, I turned my head and looked away. I don't have any experience with this stuff, I'm a virgin still and have been on a date or even kissed a girl. She let out a little sigh after a moment and took my hand and we continued our walk. When we got to the train station I sat and waited with her, even though she said I didn't have to. When her train arrived she hugged me, again pressing quite firmly and whispered 'thank you' softly in my ear before turning away and boarding...
...I should've kissed her at the old Santa Clause building.... Shouldn't I?
P.S. sorry about the length of this post :/
