Feeling stuck and confused
I'm brand new to the forum and I hope you guys can offer some advice. I'm not sure where to turn or what to do.
I recently moved in with my boyfriend (and his brother) because it was convenient while we went to the same university. I guess I'm feeling resentful because he is such a slob. We have been together for 4 years this January. I have the option to move out in August when my friend transfers but I'm not sure what to do. He keeps saying he will change and I'm just waiting for him to grow up but I feel like he's only doing it for me and not because he's actually grown up. If I don't prompt him to clean up after himself he wont do it at all. No one tells me to do things and I still get everything done, I feel like I shouldn't have to say anything.
Besides the cleaning issues I feel like I'm last on his list all the time. He never wants to go out and do anything unless I make the plans. He always goes over to our friends to play video games which I'm not into so I choose to stay home. If I go with and ask to do something we can all do he's usually the most resistant even though he has his Sunday night gaming club. I feel like he makes time for everything but me even though we live together. I have to ask him to watch TV with me most of the time. He wonders why I don't kiss him very often but I wonder why he never makes time for me. How can I feel the want to kiss some one when I don't feel wanted or good about the relationship?
I guess I feel stuck. If I made a decision about us, or moving out, I wouldn't be able to do anything about it until June at the earliest. I want to do something to help our relationship or at least try to make things better in the time before that. I've tried talking about it and he's very receptive but I feel like nothing changes. He says he understands and he'll try to change but it doesn't seem to happen. I want to be less up tight and not get so flustered by the things he does that annoy me but I don't know how to let it go. I feel like our relationship is ending and I'm not sure what to do.