I'm in love with two guys.
I am very conflicted right now. I honestly feel that I am in love with two different guys, and they both believe that I've stopped talking to the other. I've known one of them for a very long time, nearly half my life, but he currently lives very far away. By far, I mean he lives on another continent. The other guy is a lot newer in my life, but he's within driving distance and can show me the physical affection that I need. Both relationships are serious. They've both talked about wanting to have a future with me. *I'd like to stress really quickly that I'm not cheating on anyone. Only the one who lives close to me is considered a boyfriend. I don't want a long-distance relationship and don't consider that guy a boyfriend in anyway, just someone to talk to for the time being.* I don't know what to do. I need to be physical with someone, not just sexually but to be able to hold hands with. But I also have a very long history with the guy who lives far away, and one day he and I will have the opportunity to be next to each other again. I don't want to wait for that time to come though. I want to be loved now. I'm really not sure what to do....