Love my best friend, we're both girls and don't know what to do
I'm 17 and for around a year and a half I've been in love with my best friend. I've never liked a girl before and before this I've always thought that I was straight, even now I keep thinking that she is just some freak exception. She's straight and I don't want to tell her because, I'm worried I'll **** everything up and I know she won't react badly to the point of us not talking but, I think she'll find it a bit weird.
We�re really close, like talk every night and see each other pretty much every day. I�ve had a lot of like bad stuff in my life, I won�t go into it because it�s pretty irrelevant but she�s been there for me a lot and I�ve helped her with a lot of her problems too. I�ve dated guys and had things with people and all that and as corny as it sounds, none of it has ever been as strong as this. Like, I�m pretty weird with the whole �love� thing except I actually genuinely think that I do.
If I told her I was bi she would not care, one of our best friends is and we still love him just the same. It might be a bit different directed at her though, I�m not sure. We�ve hooked up heaps of times at parties, cuddle every time she sleeps over and just generally together we�re flirty but in a joking way. Every time she�s drunk she�ll text me telling me she loves me (as a friend) and that I�m the only one that cares about her and sometimes I wonder if she does back but realistically, that is VERY far fetched and I don�t think she does.
I�m ranting so I�ll stop but, I really want to tell her but I don�t want to risk changing our closeness or anything. I have no idea what to do, I�ve never felt like this before and to me she is literally just perfect. I would literally not change anything about her. Don�t know what to do about it, either tell me how to get over it, or if I should tell her or something. I just have no idea how to deal with it.