Relationship changes, and questions about feelings
I have been living with and dating a guy for 2 ½ years. I told him before I started dating him that I do not want to live with a guy for a long time (1 year) without a further commitment (engagement). I told him that if he is not ok with that, than don’t enter the relationship with me. He said he 100% understands my wishes.
After the first year was up and no commitment.... I was very upset. He knew that I did not want a long term live in boyfriend/girlfriend relationship, but claimed he loved me too much and was scared to loose me so he said he was ok, when he really wasn’t.
Year two went by, and we are both very busy full-time students, so he used that as an excuse not to be engaged, (no money as we are broke students).
We also happened to have a massive fight this summer, where we temporary broke up. (for a couple hours). Of course he was drinking alcohol at the time, but we both said hurtful things, especially him. One thing he said stuck with me in my head.... he said that it was about time we ended the relationship, and that we both knew it was coming for a long time.
Ever since this big fight, I have been bitter. And its killing our relationship. I am not as affectionate, but I still love him. I just don’t know why I am acting this way. Its not fair to him or me..... can someone fill me in, perhaps I am just blind to something very simple that can address/or fix this problem in my life.
We are both still students until the winter.
Thanks for your input. I appreciate your time and advice as I do not have anybody to talk to about this.