You see, I have never had a girlfriend and it's starting to dig into me, liking girls is my weakness. I have hardly ever ever touched a girl in my life and it makes me want to gouge my eyes out. I'm not very good looking and I'm not outgoing at all. Yeah, I know, most girls want outgoing guys, but too bad, I'm not the kind of person that's outgoing, that's just how my DNA is.
I have never liked a girl with her liking me back, ever. I feel like life's biggest insult. Just recently my best friend took a girl I loved very much and now it stings until this day. My problem fueled me into killing myself with pills, I had my suicide planned out, but the pills were postponed.
I want to live a life where my world doesn't revolve around me thinking about some pretty girl. And please, save the whole, "you don't have enough confidence" crap... I've been using confidence my whole life, and I got nothing out of it. I have been through high school without kissing someone. I'm just not what girls want, and I doubt I will ever change, so why keep worrying about women? Is there a way to just not love women anymore? Not that I want to be gay, but I want my life woman free. I'm sick of seeing something I can't have then ending up masturbating for hours when I get home. For the love of GOD is there a way to end the love? I will find a way to escape this.