So soon after my breakup ?
So i have been going through a tough breakup. It has been a nightmare.. Iv been snappy with friends and family.. Crying myself to sleep on a night. Its been awful :(
My friends ended up dragging me out of the house last night to have a good ol' girls night. We ended up meeting up with the whole clan and i had such a wicked time!! Well there was a guy there who we have always kinda had a 'thing'..
Its hard to explain but its like we have a connection and we both know it. I have always been with my ex though so we never acted on it.
Well last night we ended up chatting away having a good time.. and he asked if we could go speak in privacy to discuss something. I agreed and we went to the porch.. He told me he feels something amazing when hes with me.. And he said he knows i feel it too. I do..
He kissed me and we kissed for a good few minutes. It just felt so right..I told him that i didnt want to jump into anything.. but I left with a smile :)
Today he as text me saying he missed me, couldnt wait to see me etc..
It confused me though.. As he text me saying this.. 'I just want to let you know, i wont ever be a douche to you.. I promise. I honestly want to be friends forever'.. Then said 'You probably dont believe me, and think i sound like every other guy.. But u will see'.
What does that mean??? lol He wants to be just friends.. He wants to see how it goes been friends.. lol i dont know..
I dont mind either way. I have liked him for a long time.. But i would be cool being nothing more than friends.. Especially now.
The thought of being with another guy since my breakup repulsed me.. But there is something different about him.. He's an awesome person to be around and always has been!
Also is it a really bad thing that i already like someone else? I know i should be alone at times like these after a breakup.. But today has honestly been the first day iv felt sane and just happy to be here. lol
I know these are dangerous waters to get involved with anyone else.. I am by no means going to rush anything either.. Should i just stay away? Or just go with the flow?
I dont want to mess up my healing process.. But im enjoying myself tbh :)