Ruining My Life Help Help Help
k [B]so i am 18 when i was 16 i lost my virginity to this guy who actually used me but in a way i didnt care as he is one of the most disgusting person i know but then i started getting a little out of control mostly being quite promiscuis with guys but then last year my whole world changed i met my boyfreind at a club we danced and talked and then swapped numbers i went on holiday for a week and when i came back my cell had like 15 text and voice messages from him so we met up we got serious right off and 3 weeks into it i started feeling love for him he said he felt the same he is 22 but it was really stressing me out because i didnt know if he loved me for me or the hot sex like a few guys before i think i have a complex in men because of experiences when i was younger but anyway thats not the issue the issue is my INSANE jealousy i have towards to other girls see ok i dont wanna seem like i'm into myself but i know i am attractive and men look at me but i still hate it when me and my boyfreind are out clubbing and girls are there wearing yep next to notthing all sorts go through my head eg. is my boyfreind imagining what its like to f**** them or why doesnt he look at me that way then everytime it turns into a fight usually with him saying i need help see i cant look at another women who is good looking without seeing her as a threat to me and my relationship its getting to the point were i make out imagine senarios in my head like what would he do if i wasnt there and a gorgoes girl offered on a plate would he think of me.
the thing is i love him so much but deep down i know i am pushing him further and further away my freinds arent like this in there relationships why am i like this does it sound like a i have like serious mental issues? please help