This is my first post here and I'm completely new to this but after reading some posts I thought I may be able to seek some advice or something to help me through this nightmare.......
I've been with my boyfriend for about a year now, but from day one it's been a long distance relationship purely because we live in different cities, about 5 hour drive from one another.
Over the past year our relationship has developed slowly, we would see each other once a month alternating who visits who for a few days, we have been on holiday abroad together, spent xmas and NY together and only recently told each other we had fallen in love with each other, and oh how I have fallen in love with him.
However he is starting to think now we don't have a future together because of the distance and we don't always see eye to eye with one another, by this it's because the time we spend apart his part in communicating and keeping us strong isn't how I like it to be. I have always asked him to put more effort in when we aren't together. When we are together he is wonderful, loving, attentive, caring, so to go from that to very little when we apart is hard for me.
Back to the point.....he is pulling away from me because he struggles to see how we would make a future work. I have an 8 year old daughter and someone moving is a big hurdle. He thinks logically and with his head and I use my heart. I always try and stay positive and optimistic and try to convince him (😞) that we can make this work. Even though he shows signs of not wanting to be with me anymore I just can't accept it. I love this man so much, he is all I have known for the past year and I've allowed him to consume most my life. How do I live a future without him in it. How do I accept i will never see his face again, touch him, kiss him, sleep next to him, go out for lunch, all those small silly things that meant the world to me. I really can't imagine my life without him in it and losing him now is killing me. Part of me knows I'm fighting a lost cause but I just can't let go of what I truly love. Kelly