Conflicted Outlook on Relationship
Hello, and first of all, I would like to thank anyone who reads this and takes the time to help. I truly appreciate it!
I'm in a bit of a bind with this situation I'm in with a guy. I've been friends with him for over a few years now, and he's super awesome and kind. He's a fantastic person, and I love being around him. Now, the thing is, we aren't in a relationship. I've been catching onto some major hints that he has a thing for me, and I'm very conflicted. Like, it is a definite thing that he has feelings for me, and honestly, I go back and forth about how I feel.
I want the relationship, if that makes sense, but at times, I can't help but feel nothing for him? I am totally okay with the idea of kissing, hugging, etc. him, but there are definite things that turn me off. He's younger than me, a bit more than a year to be exact. The age gap is major during this point in my life, so there is a certain immaturity to him. He's also quite awkward in social situations. I could go on about how many things I'm not a fan of, but in the end, there's a part of me that doesn't want to give up on this possibility of a romance.
As I mentioned earlier, I would be totally okay with doing couple things, but I'm just very conflicted on whether or not my feelings are true or just being forced. What should I do? Some days I'm all for it, and other days I'm just like "you know, he's not my type AT ALL". I still want the relationship, but there's still a part of me not only holding me back, but also pushing me to continue this romance.
Help?
Lookerski :)