how to let go....??? help!!!
hello everyone... i wrote on the relationship forum yesterday, but i am now officially dealing with a broken heart. long story short, i started dating my ex 9 months ago, its a long distance relationship, and in november i was drunk and another guy kissed me for about 10 seconds. i dont even remember what the guy looks like, we never talked after, it was random and stupid. and i told my bf about it 2.5 weeks ago because i felt he had the right to know. i wanted him to be with me with no lies or secrets. he said he could deal with it but sunday he broke up with me cause he says its all he thinks about. he said there is a rather big possibility that he will get over it and that we can be together again...but i asked him about it yesterday and he said its now 50/50 cause he keeps thinking about it and thinks that maybe i did stuff with other guys too...i definitely didn't but i understand why he'd be worried. anyways he told me to wait for him and im scared he will say in a couple of months " no i dont want you" or "no i met someone else"... so im going to try and get over him in the meantime and just expect the worse. so how do i do it? how do i resist picking up the phone to call him? and feeling the need to always check his profile on facebook...he doesnt even sound sad when we talk...and what if he starts dating someone soon? he said he wont be, what if? ill be heartbroken again.... i know i must be the selfish one only worrying about my heart when i hurt his too...and please don't reply back in a negative way, i know i messed up and i'm extremely depressed... i kind've feel like life is over for me, though i know it's not...im only 18 years old. i just need help in trying to get over everything...we were so close, we knew eachother for 6 years before we started dating and we were good friends. sorry for letting this get so long....but please, please help. i'm a mess.:(:upset: