The beginning of an endless struggle...
I am in love with my best friend. But we dated before we were best friends?
Does that make sense?
We dated for about 14 months in high school. But I felt like I was going in a direction that he really couldnt follow. If we continued the relationship, it would have ended in tragedy and possibly result in never speaking to each other again. (Like most high school relationships end up)
I was going away to college and he was staying at home. At the time I felt it was the right thing to do to go our separate ways. We remained best friends because that's what our relationship developed into.
It's been 2 years since we broke up, and we are in constant companionship. I was happy with the way things were going up until last month. When I realized that I am still in love with him.
We were perfect for each other. We were the type of couple that everyone envied because they were so sure we would get married out of high school. It didnt bother me that everyone thought that... even thought I knew it wasnt going to happen. I have big dreams of being a professional musician, and that takes time and focus. But he apparently agreed with the rest of the student body. We never fought about anything and we did everything together. He truely was my best friend.
You can all imagine how heart broken he was when I told him we should split. I felt bad, but deep down, I knew it needed to happen to save any kind of future we could possibly have with one another. And I was right.
I knew I had to tell him my true feelings, but I was too late. He's been in and out with the worst kind of girl. She's manipulative and controlling, not to mention jealous and selfish. She already has a serious boyfriend who she's been dating for 4 years... and she's cheating on him with my friend. He knows about the boyfriend... and apparently he doesnt care. This girl has led him to believe that he'll never be happy unless she's in the picture. And he believes her. All of our mutual friends told me he feels the same way about me... but this girl has his feelings, and not to mention his life all messed up. He knows how I feel now... but he's still messing with her. He has resulted to telling lies to everyone he cares about to keep this relationship he has with her secret. He's obsessed with her. He ditches his friends for her and he's been ditching school for her. He's turned into the very guy that I vowed never to date again. He's breaking my heart.... and I dont know what to do.
Help.