Well Im new here. I got a question maybe some girls or guys can help with my problem. I was engaged to a girl for three years, we were high school sweethearts. Well we started fighting for two months at the end of the relationship about all kinds of stupid stuff. I knew we needed space but we never alowed it. So we both just got on each others last nerves. Well I have OCD. Im not scared to talk about it. thats Obsessive compulsive dissorder it causes me to to do things over and over. Such as when I would call her when she was with her friends I would call ten times. Well she gave me many chances. More then twenty. It came down to that last day and we got in a huge fight I broke a special frame between the two of us and she blew up rightfully so. She told me it was over for good. Well instead of letting things cool. I kept calling. It bugged her to the point where she finally said she doesn't love me or care about me and she doesn't want to hear or see my face again. I called a week later and she told me the same thing. She told me she was seeing someone else. She was, obviously to get her mind off me. Well to make a long story short she just called me about five days ago asking if we could meet to exchange our stuff. Thing is all she has for me is her ring and a couple of my shirts. She told me she wanted her stuff back. She doesn't have anything over here. She knows that. Well we ended up talking for fifteen minutes. She wanted to know what I was doing to get help. I told her I started counseling and medication. Which is helping me everyday. I can tell a difference. She told me she just doesn't know if she can trust that Im going to change. Now ive asked many people, and they have all told me that they think she has to still love me and care about me and she was prob calling saying that crap as an excuse to see how I was doing. In my own oppinion I think she is mad yes but I think she has to still care about me. Im just saying we were so close and shared in so many experiences it would be impossible for any other guy to top me. Im just asking for your oppinions. Everyone around me have just told me to give her time. And that she still loves me. Maybe all I need is some words of encouragement. I don't know. My problem can be fixed thank god, I just hope and pray that she sees a renewed me. I hope she sees that I wont go back to my obbsesive ways. Its only natural for her to feel hurt. She gave me so many chances. I just never got help or help didn't help me enough. Not alot of people really understand what ocd is or what it does. its hard. Well I asked her if she could care about this guy as much as she cared about me. She said yes it's possible its only been four weeks we never get to spend time together. I responded by saying you no its not possible. She didn't say anything. To top it all off the guy she is seeing works with her. That is a rebound, someone to get her mind off me. I can't see that happening. I mean everywhere I go brings back a memory. It has to be the same way for her. She said she took down all of her stuff to go in her room. Everyone is telling me to just give her time. So that's what I going to do. Trust me she's worth it. She brought out the best in me.
