Getting back up on my own

I told you before
That if we ever said goodbye
You’ll be the one to leave
And I’ll be left alone to cry

Because every part of you I adore
This is love I know it in my heart
But now my heart beats with a sore
Maybe it’s my fault for not being smart

So there we were, our last online chat
You said NO and left it at that
I stared blankly at your unforgiving face
The most painful moment of my life just took place

I was in denial, Oh I was hurt
Give me another chance, don’t leave me in the dirt!
But no tears came from your eyes
I knew then that everything we had was lies

I felt it, a hot flush of blood
A torrent of mixed feelings came in a flood
Sad, frustrated, hurt, betrayed, angry
Cheated, rejected, hopelessness and agony

And that was it, it was done
You left me alone, my only one
A big gaping hole where you used to be
And now I see only one person kneeling, crying.. Me.

You tore my heart into two
The bigger half you kept it for you
A tiny fragment of what I used to be
That’s right you left a small piece for me

Well if you leave then do it clean
But oh you just had to be mean
‘I still love you’, you said, teary eyed
And with that I broke down and cried

Leave it be leave it be
This relationship’s no longer worth it to me
With all the rubbish that you’ve done
I must be blind to think that you can love someone

All you think about is yourself
And how you ride the ups and leave out on the downs
Many a time I had to work on it by myself
While all I get from you is yells, screams and frowns

‘I’ve found another’, you said to me
As if I’m not hurting enough already
Keep it to yourself I don’t have to know
Know this girl, you reap what you sow

‘He reminds me of you’, you couldn’t resist
Well if you insist
I couldn’t be bothered, I don’t have the heart
You expect me to be happy for you? After you’ve torn it apart?

‘It’s a joy to be single’, you started to say
Way to rub me a million times the wrong way
**** you, leave me alone in my dismay
But NO, you have to go all the way

‘I kissed another man’, you tell me still
What’s gotten into you?
I thought we had a deal
We weren’t supposed to see anybody until we talked things through

So four and a half years went speeding down the drain
I wanted to see you so bad, I almost got on an aeroplane
But now I know that it’s not necessary
Because you and I, it’s already history

In all its irony, you held me to blame
You said I left our love to rot, oh what a shame
Deep down I know you’re just finding excuses
You misused me, you misused US

The person I thought you were remains a hopeful delusion
I’ll tear it down now, that’s my salvation
Oh how you dragged me around and played me like a tool
And after so long, I see now that I’m the fool

Wake up wake up I hear myself say
She’s already gone. Gone away
Wake up wake up it’s already Thursday!
I tell myself today will be a NEW day

I will not break down
I will not cry
I will build myself back up
Until I touch the sky

I need you, oh I do. But that was once upon a time
Today. Right now. You’re not even worth a dime
I’m over you girl, I swore to myself
Those days are over, stowed away on the highest shelf

Today, today, I’ll work on only me
I’ll be the absolute best. The best that I can be
You’ll regret the day you left my arms to stray
You got that right. You’ll regret this day

But who cares about what you feel
I know for a fact that my feelings for you was real
I know I’m a great guy because I was with you all the way
Through thick and thin, I’d never sway

So now you’re out there in this cruel world
I’d stick by you and support you but hey, you left me girl
I hope you have a great time separating the assholes from the jerks
All this while you said we’re incompatible. Fine! Go find one that works

Listen to your girl friends, they’re bitches if you ask me
And oh, you’re turning into one too. You just can’t see
Don’t speak to me, don’t come around
Don’t look for me I’m nowhere to be found

All those things that I gave you, please keep them all
I don’t want them back at all
Your things are all in a box
I’ll burn them soon. With my old dirty socks

At least I’ve learnt a lesson and I’ll stand back up again
At least I’ve tasted real love, oh and I WILL love again
I’ve lost a trickster
You’ve lost a best friend, a partner, a lover

good for you Dune. You speak for many of us here (though not me).

Very moving and well thought out..

well written nice job!

Healing words...for you ...and for others.