I dont kno what to do/what went wrong?
Me and my b/f have been in a long distance relationship now for about 2 1/2 years.We love each other very much and I go out there for 3/4 months at a time.Last time I was there something happend and we had like our first real argument.I couldnt get over it so easily. He tried and tried to say sorry and love me but I just fell further away,I see now that was a huge mistake. After a while I started to not worry or care about that problem anymore and me and him got back to normal pretty much.Then I left so go home thinking wow things are finally changing! (While I was there we were talking about getting a house and getting married soon) and he is very afraid of commitment so I was thinking wow you kno,we are really getting better! Then about a few days ago I told him things felt diffrent this time (he took it the wrong way) I meant I dont really feel worried about things but I didnt exacly say it like that,and he got upset so I did too..and everything just all went downhill from there..He started saying how I would never forget that problem and how it would ruin us forever and nothing would be the same.After that I felt as if I had lost him for good,that was the worst feeling I ever had..He said later on he needed space but he still loved me alot and missed me...I dont see how much space someone thats in a relationship like ours needs but Oh well..So he pretty much ignored me and showed no emotion twords me..I have to force him to tell me he loves me (he says being mushy while im gone makes it harder for us) I think diffrently..anyway last night I called him up and said that all this was really stupid and dumb and why are we doing this and asked him if he really loves me why doesnt he ever wanna talk to me or tell me he loves me without me having to make him-im all thats just weird. He said that he is trying to figure out if we could ever get married.Im all how are you supposed to kno or think you will (he thinks he doesnt make me happy now and everytime i try and tell him he does he doesnt think he will in 5 years from now and so on) and that just really makes me mad..I kno i love him now-He says we need more than love to work things out and i just dont understand..We have a pretty big age diffrence.Im 18 and he is almost 32,age doesnt matter to us,but he thinks il cahnge ALOT in a few years,but I know how I feel..He always sorda brakes up with me to when I go back home but then 2 weeks later he always wants me back ..Its like this time he is just doubting everything and being jerky TRYING to make it not work when I am trying so hard and I love him so much and he can see that...everything was GREAT a few weeks ago then all of a sudden BAM...I dont know what went wrong or how to make it right-But I kno I love him and I just want all this stupid stuff to stop and me and him love each other..I may be young but I know how my heart feels..and its hurts so bad without him..I just want him back and for us to be normal..