How would you feel if a friend told you how he felt then never talked to you again?
Often times, it seems like confessing your feelings is the wrong thing to do.
Most of the time you try to find the most surgical way of saying it without making things awkward.
What is mostly the end result is that you wanna tell her, and you wanna disappear after that because now your black listed and they can care less if you were hit by a car. Atleast that's what I'm feeling. A friend of mine hasn't been close for a while. I have yet to say anything. I talk to other girls but it just doesn't get her out of my mind.
I wanna tell her, but I gotta prepare for rejection, AND loss of trust. Therefore it's probably better to just disappear since I expect the worse.
Everyone tells me I should just tell her. Stop beating around the bush. And no, not something like "I LOVE YOU". Overall I just want her to know that I'm real, I do care, and if she doesn't, it's cool. I really value her friendship(and I do, which is why this is a hard choice to let it go, or to really tell her). I don't want this to change anything, and after this I promise to give her her space, and let myself potentially fade away.
I feel that I'm gonna be numb after this.