Always comparing myself to others...self esteem issues
I have always been pretty happy with myself but lately I've noticed I have been frequently comparing myself to more "successful" and "attractive" people. I know I have done pretty well for myself so far (about to earn a PhD degree and make 100k+/year) but somehow it doesn't seem good enough. I am a 28 year old mother (1 child). I keep myself in shape and live a healthy lifestyle. I have put myself through college without help from anyone.
I think the problem is that when I look back into my past I feel that somehow I've failed at something. I become pregnant at a young age (21) and have always felt out of place with people around my age...I'm always paranoid about what others think of me.. I feel that at my age I should have a stable home/family. I have a boyfriend that I really love and we talk about marriage and children but for some reason I find myself thinking that he might find someone better. I know he really loves me and I wouldn't want to scare him away with my insecurities..He does nothing to make me think he would do such a thing...it's all in my mind.
I feel like I need to work on self esteem issues. I have not been able to form good friendships with people either...possibly because I'm too worried about people betraying me. I just have trouble trusting people in general.
I'm also dreading turning 30...I don't want to get old :-(