Talking about being on the same boat.
Alright, I'm as totally confused as you are about that whole situation as well.
We said our "agenda" before getting into it as "im not looking for any relationship or commitment whatsoever." You pretty much had the upper hand. And if she agreed to it, you said your piece...
Bet it was fun.. I bet sex was great [as I read in the magazine, couples that are not in so called "relationship" title have better sex than those who are. Reason being: when you have sex with them you act like its the last time you'll ever going to see them, you might not think of it that way but in the back of your head... thats what it is, coz its challenging... you want to be the Best if ever they go somewhere else, you want to leave a mark, that you've given them the best orgasm ever, so theres always the rough, edgey, passionate sex.
Thats great you told her where you stand, and not left her in the dark and lead her on. But the most confusing of all that is making sure if you really miss her or you just miss "somebody" to be around you. Dont get me wrong feeling like somebody cares for you, hold your hand, look at you in the eye knowing that they know who you are and accept it, its a great feeling. But you have to be fair!!!
If you know you are not ready for any commitment then dont do it. If she's the type of person that seems she has the drive to be with you fully, without any bullshit.. make sure your in the same page, that you will give your time, your mind and everything she needs so none of you will get hurt. Coz its not just her, she'll get hurt more than you but yourself as well. If you already have those feelings that even if its "sometimes" you just want to be alone and you dont want to deal with any drama for now, and no matter how great she is you still have "doubts" whether or not you want to be with her and thats a sign. "Doubts" once you have them from the beginning...... dont even pursue in going at it. The other person doesnt deserve to be with you or with any guy thats HALF SURE. Bec. later down the road, if you do get with her, it will slowly creep on you.... that doubt you had from the very beginning. And you've gotten so deep with her as a couple, no matter you dont want to hurt her, you'll stay and wait for her to end it.... and then if you couldnt wait instead of ending it in a good note, things we'll start to be more confusing to you and might end up hurting her the way you wouldnt want to.
Hope I help you in a way. Goodluck