first off, i don't want anyone deleting this topic because it mentions an illicit substance. i apologize if this offends anyone or if anyone is against drugs.
i smoked a bowl with my BF last night and we ended up having sex.. the problem was that it was completely horrifying. i felt disconnected from my body, my surroundings. I kept feeling like i saw him for what he truly was. i had so many negative thoughts about him. all of my subconscious fears came out like rotten acne! everything was essentially dug out of my psyche and brought out into the open. i didn't feel anhedonia (lack of pleasure) but my orgams were less intense. I even thought about leaving his house and taking the bus back home because i wanted to be by myself!
it had verily caused a mess in my head! it's not as though i felt numb (i could feel my body), but my feelings felt 'artificial.' it's hard to describe. i've smoked marijuana before--never in this context--and have gotten similar feelings. it becomes to feel like i am empty inside. this is weird because pot makes most people happy!