Well i met this girl, she is the perfect girl I had ever asked for. I chased her for about 5 months and eventually she decided to accept me to be her other half. I was so glad that we finally got together and we spent so much time together. The problem is that she had family problems before and so it wasn't easy for her to express her emotions. Nevertheless this is something that i did not mind.
Although i thought it was going on fine, suddenly there was a change of heart in me, and the next day i just changed totally. I was a different man, unmotivated, and a person lacking of drive. This was not the usual me. I did not feel like meeting her or even talking to her and as a person i did not even feel like doing anything at all. I felt so ridiculed by feelings. The truth is that i know i like her and i still want to be with her but my feelings does not tell me the same thing. Another odd thing is that we skipped the honeymoon period... Something i believe as a very valuable period of time to be spending with each other. Even if we did actually have a honeymoon period, mine lasted for say 2 weeks? Which really wasn't normally what i would expect out of myself. While on the other hand, for her, it should have been very easy since it seems as though I lost feelings for her, and that she had to go through the honey moon period herself.
Despite all this, i know her worth for me and i was always proud to have her as my girlfriend. I showed her to my friends and families and all of them accepted her. I thought that this would result in me gaining more feelings for her since everyone approved of her, instead, it gave me a lot more stress in the relationship. Eventually, leading to me breaking down and also breaking up with her. As of now, I know that my relationship is gone. I also know, that her feelings are strong enough for me to get back together with her now if i wanted to. But to prevent having the risk of hurting each other, i decided to break up to figure myself out and figure out why am i so unmotivated. I still do not have a reason, but i pray my feelings will come back to me so that i can get together with her once again. With her, I know like I'm the luckiest man on earth. But it seems as though my feelings beg to differ. I'm basically just having an internal war within myself. I really want to get this sorted out so that I can quickly get together with her again. A girl like her is hard to find. Help.
