Love, Trust, Sex, Lies, Betrayal
I was in a relationship with my girlfriend for a year. It was beautiful. But then we had some problems, she lied to me a lot, got over possessive and so i let go of her. I gave her my share of troubles too if i might add. Then i moved on and got into another relationship 6 months later, this one lasted for a few months and then fell apart. All this while my first girl used to call and ask me to come back to her and that i was the only one for her. She also had supposedly moved on and had a boyfriend at that time. After my second break up, I went back to her, on a rebound thing. She also left her current guy to be with me. We started afresh, on a good note, coming clean about everything. Then one day i got to know of a third guy that she hooked up with, soon after we had broke up, which i never knew about. I confronted her and she denied everything. I came back with proof and then she accepted that he was there in her life. Shattered by this, by more of her lies, i left her again. She felt guilt and remorse. I felt i could never trust her again. This was 10 months back. We've been in touch all this while. I realize i love her and cant stop doing that, no matter what. She and I have kept ourselves off any more relationships since then. Now we are again getting close, and have started dating again. I understand and accept her. But i worry for the trust that is now missing. Am i doing the right thing. Will it work? I need counselling.
P.S. I visited a massage parlor yesterday and the girl lend me a hand. I feel guilty about it. I would not have done it under normal circumstances. I mean i have been to prostitutes in the past, but never when we were together, i couldn't.
