Had an affair, got pregnant!
Hello,
This summer I had a 2 night stand with a younger man, he was 27, I am 40. I was in a relationship of 6 years at the time, we have a child together. I've always loved him but I've often felt left alone as he travels all the time and is occasionally emotionally shut off.
I felt terrible after my indescretion, then found out I was pregnant with the affair's baby. I haven't talked with this man since, he wants nothing to do with it. Which is fine with me, I really wanted my husband to take over and adopt. He is n't willing to and in fact has left me.
Here is the problem, I am a wreck. I know I made a terrible choice and was so sorry right after it. I have been crying and begging for him to stay for months. It's just a mess.
He keeps telling me I have to let him do what he needs to do. That he can't ignore his heart that tells him to get away. My heart is broken, I just sob uncontrollably for hours every day and night almost like someone died. I felt like such a baby, but I honestly didn't ever want to lose him, It just felt good when someone payed such attention to me. I cant believe I've ruined our family and my daughters family. And now I have the new baby coming that he wants nothing to do with, I'm alone with 2 kids, single mom, no love of my life because of my dumbass affair. Will he ever come back?
Thanks for any help or advice.