I need an advice, what to do? what to think?
Hello everyone
I'm a simple boy like millions who live in dreams and who hope that future
gonna be better than present, and she is special, she is most beautiful,
most interesting... the best girl i meet in my life, from first moment i
saw she, she became the sense of my life, she is better than the ideal
girl of my dreams. I know she some years, more time she was just a dream
she didn't know me, but she already was in my heart,
but i really begin to love she about a year ago when she came to talk with
me, from that moment all time i think about she.. we talked everyday, and
we had very nice discussions, i can be wrong but i became just a friend
for she, after some weeks we had a discussion about something ( forgot about what)
but she said that she had a surprise or something else, and I will see it
in one week... that surprise almost killed me.. after a week was Christmass
, so when we celebrate it with friends, she came with a boy ( her new boyfriend )..
that was worst Christmass & New Year & Birthday in my life... i tried to
forget she, a half of year we didn't talk, didn't meet, but i didn't
forget she, then this summer i saw that she is alone and she feels very very
bad, and we started to talk again, we talked every day, i have seen that
she feels better, maybe it's not because of me, but i saw her smile again. After
some time i told she that I love her, but her reaction broke my heart, she
was cold, told some words i unexpected to hear, then after some days i said
that this hurts and i can't talk anymore with she, but now again she said
some words i unexpected to hear, her words made me wanna cry, from that words
i understood that i'm important for she and maybe she will love me too, but next day
she changed again.. her words were cold, i noticed that she didn't want to talk , next days
she didn't response to my messages, but in one day i accidentally saw she
with her previous boyfriend they were together, that broke my heart again, i felt very very bad, my
life was destroyed, no dreams, no motivation, nothing..., thanks
to a friend who helped me to get back. After some days she was single again... i didn't
want to talk with she, but she wrote first, we had a nice discussion, i felt good again,
the life got sense again, but next days again something happened with she... again cold words, again my broken dreams..
Maybe again i became a simple friend... that hurts.
I don't know what to do or what to think... give me please an advice, this situation hurts and break my heart.
Note: English is not my first language.
