maybe there is something wrong with me
I need help before I drive myself crazy. if anyone has some xtra time, please read & help. thank you.
I waste way too much time freaking out, crying, wondering if i am where i am suppose to be. Work is great, but my relationship is confusing. i am fearful that it's not right, signs tell me it's wrong, so why do I stay?? I think I stay cause there is so much good in it:
- he works very hard
- he fullfills my material wants
- he pushes me to learn new things
- if i had a hard day he would make or buy dinner
- our lives together are never boring, we always have something going on. it's always exciting
- i feel safe
- he puts efforts and surprises me
- i trust him
- he loves making me laugh
Great things, but now the upsetting ones:
- He never tells me I am beautiful
- he is not very affectionate, and this is something I ache for
- he wants to only have sex when I am falling asleep
- something funny happened and I called my female friend instead of him
- he never answers his phone for anyone
- we have no anniversary, and nothing combined in our names
- when i talk to him sometimes i get nervous that it has to be good or else he will lose interest
- i don't think he laughs at my jokes
- some days I just feel empty
UGH so what do you guys think?:(