How did you fall in love?
You met someone... and you fell in love.
What I would like to ask, are just these few questions:
- What made you fall in love with them?
- How long did it take for you fall in love with them?
- How did you know that you were in love?
- How did you cope with the feelings of love, what did you do?
- How long did it last?
I can say that when I fell in love, my experience became instant. I was to be besotted and love sick for the next coming years, and I cannot stress enough that this is entirely true and if you don't believe me you might as well leave now...
From the moment I saw him, I noticed no flaws. He was older than me but I saw past that. He seemed perfect. I looked at his eyes, and my heart sunk my entire body. I looked at his significantly arched eyebrows, his perfectly straight and pointed nose, his lips with their sexy slight kink. I even looked at his slim, slender body and thought it was flawless and so sexy. There was nothing about him that I didn’t fall in love with.
He had black hair and up to that point, I hadn’t given a damn about hair colour but now black hair is one of the best features of a guy in my opinion.
I took one printed picture of him on holiday with me to France and all I remember of that holiday was just thinking about him. At night, I cried in my pillow because the strain of needing and wanting him was so unbearable. I enjoyed all alone time I had... so I could just think and fantasize about him. On car journeys I would look at the stars and picture him and wondered what he was doing at that moment in time, I imagined him flying through the air and running along the road with me. My heart sunk into my soul and I longed for him so badly.
I dreamt the most beautiful dreams about him, I saw his face in every film I watched, every song I heard, every story I read. Every second of Titanic made sense to me. I imagined him countless times in places and spaces and times and everything, I thought about him all the time every day for 4 years.
Being in love inspired me to draw (all my pictures were made of love and one was a portrait of him), to act, to paint, to talk about him in video blogs, to write stories, to describe my feelings and longing.
It was an obsession, but through it I found the deepest form of love for someone I can possibly imagine. He sculpted the way I see men, what I like, he became my base and for a long time I searched for someone who is like him.
Just so you know, a relationship with him would be impossible, and my feelings have died down a lot since this happened a few years ago now, but it changed my life.
So I am wondering, what have been your experiences?
