Prescript - Sorry about the punctuation and spelling just kinda throw it together.
- Any advise is appreciated.
I'm so confused. I don't really know what to do about my female problems.
I love this girl to death but I starting to see that she doesn't feel the
same. Should I let her go? What if she never comes back? I do have others
to fall back on but I yet to see anyone that is even comparable to her.
It destroys me to see her with someone else, I know its selfish but I
can't help it. I've never been the emotional type but it tears me apart
to even think about losing her. I might be over thinking it cause its the
only think thats been on my mind for the past while. And the worst part is
that I've been through so much with her, made so many sacrifices, jumped
head first into horrible situations for her and her friends are trying to
talk her out of a relationship with me? I have no idea what to think,
where did I go wrong? I've never done anything to jeopardize our relationship
or anything of that nature, I've always had her back even when I know shes
wrong. I just wish I could flick a switch and not love her, thinks would be
so much easier.
If your finding it hard to understand how much I love this girl let me try
to explain. My love for her isn't just the "I love you's" and stuff, its so
much deeper. Its the goosebumps she gives me when I feel her breath, the
chills I get I feel her lips, the moments when I can speak cause all I can
feel is my heart beating in my neck. Shes been my inspiration to exist,
without her I am lost. And I don't even know why I love her so much cause
she very good at letting me down, getting my hopes up just to watch them
drop and I'm not trying to cut her up or anything but its seems like if she
says shes coming to me there is maybe a 10% chance shes going to make it.
Whenever we go out I disappear to her and that hurts the most. I have so
many mixed emotions right now, extreme love, some hate, lots of confusion
and a good dose of heartbreak.
I want her to be happy and I want her to be with me, but the why things are
going there opposing eachother and that kills me. Not she if I should let
her read this or not? I'm not getting use the that fact of her being with
another man, its going to kill me, even more so when my greatest motivation
was her. Losing your greatest friend, lover, and companion won't be easy.
PS - Thanks for getting through that. And she just texted me that shes going to come to my place around 8ish am. not sure if this changes anything.
PSS - I know that if I wanted to I could get her back... I'm just not sure if I should.