Hey.
Short story, she had a 3 years relationship ended, i was the first to know. Never really cared for her, i was just there. Some months later, she started to show interest, i had a previous relationship that ended as well.
I started to like her.
We begun to date, going out, stuff like that, hours and hours of me and her, sleeping together, first few weeks, but then, i started to notice some coldness. No more hours of conversation, no more sleep overs. I have a pretty low ego, but at the same time, i dont let anyone mess with me or people i like. I defended her a couple of times, even grabbed a neck once. I have a lot of bad qualities, but i think i have a big heart, i treated her right, i wanted her to feel good.
Last night she just said, we need to talk, i like you as a friend. I was like "ok...what can i say". But then i started thinking, i was the rebound guy. She still loved her ex, now she doesnt, and i was just used. I feel so bad, so hurt, feel like a pussy. I do martial arts, and the physical pain is nothing compared to what im feeling right now. I feel heart broken, i really liked her. I do. Hours dont pass by, time slows down, food lost its taste, music has no meaning, i dont feel like doing anything. I asked her "why me? why didnt you let me be? why did you say you loved me?", but the worst thing she said was "pretty things dont last forever". She is a nice girl, she has past issues, specially with the guy she dated, but its not my fault. Its not. I have no one i can talk to, i have some friends, but im not a guy that talks about this stuff with friends or family. I feel really lonely.
Sorry for the rant.