fell in love with another
I won't go into too much detail about my marriage except to say that we've been together for 10 yrs and have a 3 yr old girl. Ever since I had her I've struggled with depression. I'm on medication but the depression just gets worse probably due to my situation. Our marriage was perfect until we had her. I hate to say it but it's true. My husband has a terrible temper and when it was just us it never bothered me much. But now I can't stand to listen to him yell at her. And he's been a little too aggressive at times and I've threatened to leave if he doesn't do anger mgnt. He hasn't done that but he has been trying to be better with it. But I'm sure it's just temporary, it usually is. So first off I really am struggling with how I should deal with this? I don't know if I'm making too much of it or am I not doing enough?
Anyway we obviously have other problems other wise I never would've found myself looking at another man. It's a guy i work with and of course he's married too. Neither one of us would ever cheat. That I am certain of. But I know he's miserable in his marriage. He has kids too but he's been married 20 yrs. sigh.. and every time I try to stop thinking about him or try to focus on improving my marriage. It all goes out the window when I see him. We've been friends now for about a yr. And only recently have we really started to flirt with each other. We've both tried so hard to be good, but it's like we're addicted to each other. I crave his presence and recently realized that I love him.
I've been torchered by guilt. But I can't seem to help the way I feel. I've tried everything and don't know what else to do. I'm desperate and afraid to talk to my friends and family about it because I'm so ashamed. Oh and I'm pretty sure my husband knows. He's been acting very desperate lately and he asked me if there was someone else. All I could say was that I would never cheat on him. please help I'll take any advise at this point. thx