cannot stop thinking about here
cannot understand myself, I have been eying a woman for about a year but we kept ignoring each other. I saw her a year ago almost everyweek in the gym where I attend a training session with a group of poeple. At the beginning never thought she was very attractive. I must admit she has a superb body and she is tall about my height. I sort of tried to greet her at the beginning of the year, she gave me the funny look. I swore I will never even make eye contact. I even spoke to her friend while she was standing next to her i completely ignored her. To be honest, I was rather happy thinking that I am in control. Two months ago, I was in the park and there she was right in my face, she said hello, I said hello back and carried on walking. Since then,we have been smiling to each other and things started to g�t good. I wish it did not. I think all this time ignoring each other had ignited fire in me and i saw myself falling for her and loosing control. We met in the car park near the gym, she saw me parking my car and decided to accompany me. with a big smile I asked, how come that we have known each other for a year and never greeted each other. she laughed and said I do not know but lets forget about the past. I thought hay this is absolutely heaven. I started to feel that i am falling for her. I decided to tell her that i really liked her and wanted to know her more. Completely ignoring my mind, i waited for her in the same car park and rushed to say hello and I said it was really nice to see her again and that l waited for her that day. That moment she gave me the absolute cold shoulders, i was finding it difficult to keep the conversation going, i changed the topic to something else, she kept looking at her mobile and texting ignoring me completely. we sort of drifted apart while the training session was taking place, i decided to completely forget about her and try with other women. One clearly signalled to me to date her but honestly there is no attraction from my side. The old friend started to get closer to me droping hints, i sort of gone with the flow thinking i could forget about the one. Chatted to few but honestly i cannot get her out of my head, nor will i be trying again with her. it will be very helpful to tell me if you had similar experience and how did you get over her/him. Did not ask her if she is with a partner she mentioned she has childern. Deep inside I think she does not feel attracted to me. I keep telling myself c'est la vi
