I'm going to cheat on my girlfriend
On Saturday, I will cheat on my girlfriend.
I have been with my girlfriend for about 2 and a half years now. We live together in a one room apartment. I love her very much, and it is easy to see that she loves me through all the wonderful caring things she does. We rarely have fights or problems. Neither of us ever leaves the apartment without a goodbye kiss, comes home without a welcome home kiss, or goes to sleep without a goodnight kiss. I have the perfect relationship.
But we never have sex. When we first moved in together, we had sex multiple times a day every day. That lasted until she got pregnant about two months later. After the abortion, she couldn't have sex for a month. Even after the month, sex was infrequent and soon slowed to a trickle for the next year. Then stopped altogether. We haven't had sex for over a year now. I need sex.
I met a woman last week who proposed an arrangement. She needs money. I need sex. We help each other out. Occasionally we will meet and have sex, and I will help her out financially. She's just a normal person who needs help with medical expenses, not a prostitute. Well... she will be a prostitute starting Saturday. We agreed to keep the arrangement between the two of us. Neither of us can have sex with anyone else unless they end the arrangement first. Neither of us wants to worry about diseases.
This all makes perfect logical sense. I don't see a reason to end an otherwise great relationship because of lack of sex. I can't go on without sex. There is practically a 0% chance my girlfriend will ever find out, so she won't be hurt. It all makes sense.
Why do I still feel a little guilty?
I'll probably feel better after the first time is over and done with...