Is there a wrong way to spend our time apart?
Happy Friday!
Feeling blue and nowhere to really let it out so here I am.
Me and my girlfriend of 5 years are finally doing what we should have from the beginning and that is really figure out what we want in the future. Sadly the more we figure it out the more we see we are not compatible. As I think of why that is it seems pretty obvious we both like such different things. I have been trying for the last 5 years to get onto the same page and that is where I ****ed up. I used to think all we needed was love and with love we could work on anything but I guess I am naive otherwise every loving relationship would work.
It seems we both expected each other to bend towards the way we want out future to be. Obviously that is a failing method. I am starting to see there is a difference between compromise and constantly doing things you don't want for the partner you love. There is a fine balance and I just am not there.
I am not sure why this makes me so sad when I write this I know we are doing the right thing.
So I guess this is where my question comes in. Is there a wrong way for us to be spending time apart to think? We are taking time for ourselves right now and will be coming together at the end of the week and discuss what we want and I guess see where we are at.
At this exact moment I would love to crawl into a hole and die as I feel like such shit but realistically I am planning on relaxing all weekend and try to stay away from people. Everything reminds me of her even my good friends and working and being alone has me feeling a little better. Is that the wrong thing to do? Should I be going out and talking to people, just forget everything? Do I set a time limit for my alone time? I don't want to jump into the next relationship and I don't want to be forever alone, as I write this it all seems more obvious that I should do what is good for me and what I am happy with but is it unhealthy for me to cut everyone off for a weekend? Am I crazy for even thinking it?
As I point my questions to the sky I appreciate the fact I can let out my crazy thoughts somewhere.
Thanks for reading.