"You are never gona be happy."
Went shopping this evening and spoiled myself with a couple new jackets. Showed em to my roomates and invited them to the party/club I was invited to this weekend that kinda precipitated the mini shopping spree...
They turned down the invitation then went on to mini lecture about why I was "changing" my dressing style to impress the people at this party. The party will be filled with rich Persian types and frankly I got a taste for kabob. Something about Persian women's high self esteem and no baggage is outrageously attractive to me. They went on to lecture me about the string of women I've been dating and almost said straight off they think I am doing something wrong by NOT settling for some one more like a house wife. They know my relationship history since my 5 year marriage back in my early 20's ended and said words to convey that they think I aim higher on the attractive/out going girl types because I am perusing something in my own head...
I'm confused because it doesn't feel like I am doing anything wrong but don't like the looks and "advice" I am getting from my peers.
"Just relax Graham. You need to find a more 'grounded girl'."
"Notice how each of your relationships get shorter and harder to get over the hotter and more out going the girl is."
"I think you are going through a phase where you are chasing an idea."
The honest truth is I don't want to be a player. I just want to find Mrs. Right and I DON'T believe Mrs. Right works at a coffee shop, day care, or grocery store... I want someone spontaneous and loving and fun and artistically creative and being payed good money for it. Someone with self esteem and minimal baggage who is filled with spirit...