Life is messed up by loving a married women
I am a single man fell in love with married women with 2 kids. We met at work and we instantly fell in love. Not sure why but it was instant spark. We slowly started with lunch, then shopping, weekend shopping and relationship even became physical. We meet in our apartment during work almost daily. We sneak around for shoppings and even long tours in the name of work. I have been telling her that what we were doing is wrong and i tried to breakup. She will cry and i had to agree to her. She did not let me date anyone else and was very possessive. Whenever i tried to break up, she will ask me to stay few more days. And the day finally came, because of work, i had to relocate to different state. She started asking to marry her. She was ready to leave her husband and kids for me. I told her several times that it will affect parents, her husband and kids. She started blaming me that i ruined her life and i am the reason she is sad and her life is affected.
It was a decision i made to prevent anyone else from getting affected. Yes, what i did was wrong. Yes, I should not have dated her. Yes, we dated for long time without breaking up. Yes, I do want to marry her. But it will be emotionally stressful for everyone around us with divorce and children. I'm still young and slowly growing in my career. Even though I love her, i want to settle down myself and at this moment i do not want it to affect anything. Did i do anything wrong. Am I a bad person. Did I do something wrong? Should I fight for her. I definitely do not want to be a home wrecker. Please help.