He can be so mean to me, is the hurt and feeling worthless worth staying?
I have been with my boyfriend for over two years, he actually started living with my parents and me not even three months into the relationship. The relationship has never been easy, but especially since we moved into a house with three other roommates I have been feeling trapped in the relationship. It has gotten to the point when he calls me that he is off work I dread him coming home, because I know he will be mean to me. Today for instance, I was using my wireless keyboard to type up a midterm essay, he usually uses it for gaming. When I said I needed it he got mad yelled and stormed out of room. When he came back in and I told him I was upset he said "he didn't ****ing care and I need to get over it." Lately his response to when I say I have something I am upset about is "I don't care," or whatever," or "get over it." We just moved less than a month ago, so I expect some growing pains especially because he is frustrated. Though I know it doesn't make it okay for him to be mean to me. I know this sounds petty. I just don't know what to do. I tried to tell him the other day that I feel like he doesn't find me attractive any more and he says that I have so many insecuritis in my head that there isn't even a point in trying to compliment me or make an effort. We are 22 years old and he never wants to have sex and when we do I have to beg him to do something to make me feel good during. When we are as young as we are and my boyfriend doesn't want to have sex with me I can't help but feel like he doesn't find me attractive, hell half of the time all he talks about is me getting a boob job someday. I know my relationship sounds awful, but he has been with me during a severe depression tailspin when I went practically comatose for 3 months and helped me start working through an eating disorder. He is the first person that hasn't left me. I just think he has become complacent in the relationship and thinks he can treat me like crap, but I will never leave him. Thoughts? Advice?