OK.. I've been doing a lot of thinking this past month of being single and I am extremely confused as to what my ex wanted out of me. He made effort with me, spent new years eve with me, met my friends, my family would always come to my house, pick me up etc.. all to cheat on me with an ugly girl and see her behind my back? Not to mention he had kids and didnt even tell me? He wasn't even gettin sex, why was he with me if he was just going to hurt me?