absolute confusion as to what a girl really wants
hello all here.. this is my story..
knew a girl for two years.. 1st year saw her with a bf (someone i knew).. then a really bad break up.. somehow i liked the person, so was there for her in every single way she asked me.. nights after nights heard her sob story & consoled her, a continuous shoulder to cry on.. she was on the verge of a full emotional collapse, so had to be there all the time with patient strong energy.. did everything in my power to stop her from killing herself emotionally.. tried everything to show her that she wasn't the most miserable person on the planet.. got to know all her misery, all her failures, all her dreams.. & it took a long time for her to recover, but i saw to it.. & somewhere along the way i fell in love.. but i never told her that.. my situation was such i had to promise to myself that only if she comes willingly to me should i take this to another level.. & sometime she did tell me that "she was having feelings for me, but she needs some more time to be sure of herself", to which i said yes ok.. i have all the time in the world..
one year later she tells me she's dating someone.. i could not be in touch with her anymore because of the pain.. did not go into a lengthy discussion as to "why".. had to let her go unselfishly, quietly..
today i am alone with rejection & heartache & worthlessness.. and the night's a killer, makes me wish i was dead.. if this is the price of love, may i never fall in love again..