I'm not good with this stuff...

I guess the first thing to say is hey. I'm here because I want to fight this battle with myself against my recently diagnosed Paranoid Personality Disorder. I've realized how cold and cruel I've been towards others and I want to be able to change that. This is just the first step and it's hard enough, so bare with me.
I'm a paranoid insomniac, quiet and mellow. I usually like to keep to myself.
And not to long ago, I had fallen insanely in love with this girl. We are good friends to this day and I have been slowly inching my way into the next level.
It's hard to explain myself, so I guess can just answer questions, or deal with insults I'll probably be getting.
Hope this place can help me find what has been missing.

Are you being medicated? that would probably be your first step: medication compliance.

No, there really isn't any real medication for the paranoia. I only take medication for the insomnia.

Sure there is. What sort of doctor diagnosed you?

My psychiatrist.

Perhaps you aren't affected enough to warrant medication, then.

I assume you are getting psychotherapy, right? I think whatever advice a psychiatrist can give you would be better than what you could get on an internet forum, sweety. Just keep up with the therapy.

F--- therapy. I've had enough of: "ok son, your a sick child, I'm just going to keep telling you how much of a good kid you are so that someday you can just sick of it and leave me the f--- alone"
I'm not even here for my mental issues. I'm here cause there's a girl out there that I need. I need.
I apreciate the sympathy, but... I hate therapy. I just want people who can help me with... Her.

You have to help yourself first, then people'll help you with her.