I Swore To Myself I Would Never Fall In Love. And Now That I Have It's A Huge Mess!!
**Sigh** I swore to myself I would never ever fall in love but sadly I have......
I am a Junior in highschool and the guy I like is a senior......There is only 17 days left in the school year before he goes off to college and I'm sooooo confused:
The story as it is now:
So as you can guess this is the first guy I have ever really had a crush on. We both play instruments as well. He plays Bass while I play piano and violin. At first I would ignore him everyday at school(b/c I was scared) secrectly I knew I had a major crush on him. I told my friend about the feelings I was having because I just couldn't keep it in anymore and she told him to add me on facebook . Soon after like a week later after we did a performance in our school's orchestra and before he went to perform I said "Good Luck in the Performance!!". After his performance he came up to me and hugged me!!! I was suprised and I wasn't sure what really to make of it( I have absolutly no guy friends by the way). This brings me to the present: On Monday we had about 5 hours to wait until we did our next performance and I was sitting by myself dreading waiting alone for 5 hours with no one to talk to and he came over and said, "hey me and the guys are going for pizza wana come?" I said yes and went with them. We walked to the pizza store and talked a little but then the sad part comes after
The Sad Confusing Part:
We hardly talked on the way back and it was kind of akward. After we went back to the "Green room" Which was a room in the building we were staying. Soon after him and his guy friends took out their food(I didn't buy anything to eat**I'm not sure if that was good or bad**) But they ate and left me out of the conversation. So I asked them is they wanted to play Tap Tap's (The game) So they said no b/c there fingers were sticky so i said ok and played it by myself. After he told me " you want some fries", so I was like sure, then he said, "we can share the ketchup" and I said I wasn't really a ketchup person and I liked fries without ketchup ( was this bad?). after I was kind of bored b/c they left me out so I got my violin sat in a corner and practiced. They brought their instruments over to pratice with me as well but aafter a few minutes of practice they went into the next room and I went in with them. Soon after I found myself sitting ALONE at a table while he was talking to other girls and his friends. I spent the rest of the evening alone
.......by myself
--- I'm wondering if he really does like me b/c I'm boring. he also hugs other girls and he's great friends with many many PRETTY girls and I'm beginning to think maybe I'm just" another one". but, why would he ask me to come with him and not the others girls? Should I say something to him? All I've said to him since then was just random hi's and bye's. Also were going for anoter orchestra performance this Saturday and I don't know WHAT TO DO!! He's leaving in 17 DAYS!!