Well all relationships takes work and I said it while I was still seeing her back in the day. I was willing to put in work to create a relationship but she gave up and I see why. When I read my old posts at some point I was talking about sex a lot and it wasnt pleasant to read. But I didnt even noticed how I mentioned sex in my messages to her. She had other problems in her mind cause her friend died year ago and she still had him in her memory so she was thinking about more spiritual things but I seemed really shallow while talking about sex. It really pissed her off but I didnt see the signs. It was like I pushed her away. Anyway I think its worth to try again.
Today I messaged her and said I have a crazy idea. Last year I was in a 5 star hotel in Lithuania during weekend and I want go this year too but not alone. So offered her to come with me and she wouldnt have to pay. Its basically a tour with travel aganecy cause a lot of historic places would be visited too during the day. I send her a link. Hope she wont see it as offer to have sex in hotel cause that is not my intention at all, Im perfectly fine not to have sex and even sleep in different beds, but I dont want her feel undesired too, cause "theres always have to be some sexual tension giving on between girls even if you dont have intention to have sex otherwise you are friend-zoning yourself" as someone said. I said she dont have to agree right away, she have 5 months to think. Waiting for reply now.