i'm 18 and have little knowledge about the dating world. the reason for why is because i've never been comfortable with myself to make an effort with a girl. as time passed by, so did the opportunities. i've been overweight since i was 12 but once i went away from home for college i started to lose it gradually. i returned home and was showered with compliments. i then met this girl at a neighbors party. she was funny, cute and attractive. i made an effort to talk, we got on well. but being as she's a friend of my neighbors i feel as if i haven't got a chance because they have this little clique and being that i am only the hosts neighbour, i've not a chance. the next night, i saw her again but we just didn't seem to get on at all. i don't know what to do. i'm just still not comfortable with persuiting anything and as a result i\m left with this ache in my chest and for some reason i feel weak and fed up. i just feel like crying. i sometimes just hate myself for it. i make little scenarios in my mind about things i'd like to happen. like me getting with her and me being at my personal best and acting cool. but im know its not going to happen. i take too much comfort in these illusions that i just don't make the effort in real life. (does anybody else do this?)
im going back to college for 3 months and probably wont see her until i get back. i've promised myself that i will reach my personal best, get back home, try my luck and hope for the best. i dont know what i want you guys to say. im guessing i just want to get this off my chest. i appreciated all feedback though
thanks.....