At the lowest point in my life right now.
Hello everyone,
I am very depressed right now. I snapped my distal fibula in two about 2 weeks ago playing football. I just got out of surgery yesterday 12/5/07. I have a pain pump connected to me at the moment which is helping with the pain. At first I could not move my toes or any part of my foot...but now I can move my toes just a bit. Anyway, I have not been able to work for the past 3 weeks so that means no income so I'm pretty poor right now, and on top of that, my girlfriend broke up with me right after the surgery. Her excuse was that she "did too many wrong things to me in the beginning" and that "she was not good enough for me." I told her that it was okay and I forgave her long ago and that I love her and told her "Baby I love you please don't leave me..I've never felt so low in my life right now..I need you." And she said she still couldn't be with me and still left.
I don't know what to do anymore, I want to kill myself and get it all over with. I can't go anywhere, my finals are coming up and I can't even take them because I can't go to school. I'm so so lost and depressed. I have a splint on my ankle right now, and I go to the doctor Monday to get a check up and he said after that I can't walk for 2 months. I feel my life has come to a sudden screeching halt and on top of that, the girl I thought I was going to marry, gets up and leaves me during my hardest time. Before this I was very healthy, gym 5 times a week for at least 2 hours, I'm 21 right now, 6'1 and 205 pounds. I have gained 10 pounds since this and I just feel like dying.
Please help me someone, words of encouragement, advice on what to do, anything will help right now.