Hi all,
It's been a little while since I've been on here, and things for me have changed a bit.
After being in an 8 year relationship to find out I was cheated on for the last year of it was pretty tough to take.
Well, I'm not worried too much about her anymore, I'm more concerned with me. I can't quite figure out what is going on in my head and could use a few pointers.
We've been split up for about 8 months now, and I can say now that I don't miss her anymore (never thought I'd be able to say that) :)
However, it has left its mark on me. I find myself wanting to get into another relationship but every time I get to know someone, I just push them away. I have met quite a lot of girls in the last few months...sometimes get their numbers, sometimes go out with them but almost immediately say to myself...this is going nowhere and end all contact with them...Also, I think I'm turning into a complete tart, regularly found kissing different girls, sometimes 2 or 3 a night...and its becoming a need! It's just not like me, and I don't why I'm doing it?
Has anyone else found themselves behaving like this?
I also find myself getting really angry when I think about the way my ex treated me, and wonder if I'm just punishing all these other girls to get back at her?
So it seems to me, that the one thing I want, which is to meet someone nice is the very thing I'm so destructive about...Why??