Unable to understand why and unable to move on
I've been friends with a girl for the last six years who i had feelings for. She has come and gone in my life, usually when she had a boyfriend they would take priority. All through those years she has said that something could happen but it never did. At the time I thought it was just a matter of time. Now I realise that I was just being stupid. She has two boys that I grew really close too. Anyway recently we had a heart to heart after having a drink and she said she thought we were destined to be together and that she wants me to be the man her kids look up to. We hooked up that night. The week after she was just silent. I finally got her to talk to me and she said it's best we don't see each other again and that she couldn't remember what she said. That was a few months ago. I've just saw she is with someone new. I'm gutted. Im so confused why she would treat me how she did and if she ever meant anything she said. And If she didn't why say it all in the first place. I've tried dating but I haven't got the heart for it, I can't see anyone in the way I saw her and I've just stopped pursuing anything because of it. I'm miserable and I'm not sure what to do. It's obvious I'm not going to get closure from her. Also adding in that I miss her two kids like crazy it's just an awful situation. I gave no right to feel this upset as we were never together and her kids aren't mine. So I'm just left how I feel now which is confused and alone. Any similar stories or advice would be good thanks.