I have given my heart to a married man...
Hello Forum,
I have been in love with a married man for the past two & a half years. It started off as friends with benefits, my love grew & grew for this man as time wore on. He knew how I felt right from the start, for me, I was in a full blown relationship giving my all!! For him, I am someone who gives him the love & intimacy that has wavered in his marriage. When we are together, it is magical. He whispers he loves me
I question everything what happens or doesn't happen in our times together now. I want more, I want a commitment, I don't want to be the slops anymore. But he has always maintained that he would not leave his wife. There is no weekends away, no little gifts, not even a mobile number...that would entice me to stay. I stay for the pure fact that I am in love with him. We only see each other at work, have short intimate moments...hidden from the world. He only rings me when he is at work, using the work phone. Every night I drive home sobbing my eyes out because he wont be at home to greet me. I go to sleep looking at his photo lying there on the pillow, imagining that he is there. I wake up & say good morning to him every single morning...am I going crazy?? I have never been in this situation before & find myself at a loss because, even though I tell myself I have a boyfriend, in reality I have nothing but cherished memories. I hurt, I hurt so darn much.
Thank you for reading