I need some help from you folks to help me understand this girl.
We were together for almost 4 years, we were engaged and planned on getting married and lead a happy life together. It felt like we had the "titanic" type of a relationship where nothing could go wrong. The moment she got her own apartment she went back to alcohol and made tons of guy friends. It seemed as if the better her life got the worse she would treat me. She's finishing college right now so I would pretty much spoil her with everything, I would help her with homework, give her rides everywhere, get her food, suprise her with flowers at work and in general do more than one guy should.
She didn't appreciate anything and the last year with her was a nightmare since she got on her own. I would still remain a gentleman but for no good reason I guess. I broke up with her last week because of finally being fed up getting mentally and emotionally raped and abused by her.
I still love her and I know that deep inside she still loves me. The problem is that I've already made a first step on several occasions to make everything ok between us. I'm kind of hoping for her to come to my house and suprise me and tell me that she'll change but something is telling me that that won't happen.
I cannot make the first move 'cause then I'll spoil her even more and she'll end up treating me like a total piece of garbage that I know I don't deserve.
Does anybody have any ideas what should I do? :upset: