Am I just over thinking this?
I have a tendency to over rationalize and analyze things a bit too closely, especially in regards to this relationship. Some outside insight would be helpful, so I can know if its just me and my silly conclusions.
I've fallen in love with a man I'm not too....lets say, certain about.
It started off as just a guy I knew. Then he told me one day that he was being deployed to Kuwait. While he was in another state training, he would text me every day out of boredom, so a friendship was born.
He then left the country, still texting everyday, emails, skype, the whole deal. We started to get closer and closer, and then one day he asked me that on his leave for Christmas, can we go on a date.
Christmas comes, it was magical. We fell in love right then and there. Before he went back to Kuwait, he said that when he comes home, which was five months away, we would start a relationship.
Well, we had a bit of an argument leading up to that five months, where we stopped talking for awhile. We just recently got back into contact.
He's back now, but he has moved to Michigan to be closer to his son. And do get the divorce thing from his wife rolling.
There are just a few things that keep nagging at me over and over, since the beginning.
He tells me that he loves me, and wants to call me his, and that next month he's going to come down for awhile, and we can be together like we originally planned. But I'm, honestly, just so afraid he's lying to me.
Like, the thing with his wife. He has expressed to me that she still wants them to work out, and that he doesn't want to go back to that.
But I have cause to believe he's living with her. We rarely talk on the phone now, its alwaysbtext. And when I ask him if I can call him that night, he says he'lk see. He NEVER says that.
And when we do have phone conversations, which is not many, three times he has told me that he had to get off, because his ex just arrived and quickly gets off tge phone.
Its not my business to know, but it brings me to my next insecurity.
I think he's sleeping with her. Or has another girlfriend, or several.
I will ask him whens the last time he has had sex, and his answer is always either just a week, or a few days ago.
You're supposed to be in love with me, and pine for only me. Wheres all this sex coming from? I know we're not officially together, but I haven't had sex or even gone out on a date with someone in a little over a month. Because he's the only one I would want to do those things with!
Third is, I think he has control issues. At the beginning, I thought it was sweet. Now, not so much. If I don't text him every single day, all day, he gets....irritated. And this is one of the reasons why we stopped talking in the first place.
I don't, honestly don't trust him. But can that change once we're physically together? Am I just over thinking this, and just relying upon history and emotional instinct?
