I really need some help ^long^ :-p
I really need some help on this one. ok, for the past few days, he has been saying that something his dad said made him think. so now he is thinking that i am not the "right person" for him. he has made a few comparisons to our parents who are both divorced, and said he needs to think about wheter or not im right for him. i understand that people need to be compatable, but he wont explain to me whats going on. he keeps saying people change, and then makes it seem like im the one who is gonna change my mind. i dont know what i did. i saw him a few days ago and everything was great, we had alot of fun, but it seems everytime i let myself think that, something bad happens. i dont understand what it is that is bothering him, because he wont really tell me. i said that i seem like im a weak person, but wont really exaplain what that means. everyone i have sought avice from has said that they dont see that in me at all, and i personally dont see it in myself, so im alittle hurt and confuzed. i just wish, for once, i could think that everything is ok. he asked me whether or not i knew if he was right for me, and i said he was, but what he doesnt know is that...
nothing is perfect. i realize that we are not getting married, but i love him so much that the fact that it has occured to me if mabey he wasnt mr.perfect, didnt really matter. i can't be expected to be perfect, because im not. not everything in our relationship is going to be flawless. This whole thing about me being weak, thats one of my personal areas that i am trying to work on. we all have things in ourselves that need improvment. i just wish he could accept that im trying to work on that. I know that there are things that make us different, but we arent supposed to be the same. or are we?
personally, i dont think that we should be exactly the same. compatable, yes, but when he says "not the right person for him" i just wish i knew what he meant.
This is really begining to become a problem for me. i dont want to have to make my mind think that something is wrong so that everything will be ok. i dont know why it is that everytime, i mean, EVERY SINGLE TIME, i let myself think that its all ok, he/or i turns around and has a compleatly different view. im not trying to point fingers, but lately, it seems like it has been him. i feel like im not making him happy, like im a dissapointment. just from everything that has gone on while we have been together, i wish i coud just start over, knowing what i do now.
i just wish we could fix it, but i dont know how he feels. everytime i try to talk to him, he wont talk to me about it. i dont know whats wrong, all i know is that i dont want to lose him. hes not just my boyfriend, hes my best friend, but i feel that im not his.
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