despite all this crap that's gone on, I still don't want to hate this bitch, even though she broke my heart and continues to do so. I've lost weight , wake up tight chested, have nightmares about her, and anxiety attacks. Even my mom says how depressed and worn out I look. I can't leave this place where I met her, I love what I'm being trained in too much. I know I should get over it. I am in no position to meet anyone else and don't want to. I don't know what to do.