Do I deserve another chance?
About 6 years ago on a lad's holiday I cheated on my girlfriend with a prostitute. (we had been going out for 4mths) It's the worst thing I've ever done and I instantly regretted it. I came home and confessed to her and thankfully she forgave me and gave me another chance. I was so racked with guilt though that i convinced myself I had caught something and went to the clinic and got checked out but I was all clear. It was a terrible time for both of us though.
Things between us were great for the next 6 years, we moved in together, talked about getting married and I know she is the love of my life. Recently however I started to feel abit sore downstairs and those old feelings of guilt came back again- I began to think maybe they missed something the first time so I got tested again. It came back clear again but this forced us to relive those painful memories and my girlfriend told me she realised that hadn't forgiven me for what I did and left me.
Im absolutely devasted, the guilt and regret I'm feeling is eating me up inside.
Is it possible to get her back or do I even deserve to get her back?