I loved her.

I loved her and she broke my heart into a million pieces and inside each piece she took away a special part of me. An innocence and love that will be gone forever from my soul.

I loved her and she tricked me, while I was foolish she want smart. While I was foolish, she was strong. I tried, and I tried and I failed and I led my life down.

Loving, always loving, and ever hoping that she would want me back.

I was pathetic.

But from the ashes I have risen. Born anew, and born again. While she struggles with fetish and image, with fatigue and disdain. She lives the life of a degraded soul in the shallow surrounded by the faces of the betrayed. Surrounded by the insidious guilt of her heartfelt heartless actions, they look on, their gaze pierces into her naked soul. As she works, and she lives under the suboordinance of the fruits of the fathers son and into his arms like a still-born child through its mother blouse.

She waits, and desires, but she will never know. She may die, but she will live until one day her mind is set and all the great ages of her time have come to an end and they will ask her what she knows. She will remain silent.

And I will still love her. I will wish her a happy life through the best of times and a darkness I cannot explain shall wish her not death, for death would be to great of a release, but a special type of pain reserved from the actions of the insidiously insane.

My Poem.

Hmm. I like it.

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Has anyone heard the new country song titled "I loved her first." It's by Heartland.

I heard it this morning on my way to work and by the title thought it was a song about a guy saying I loved her first. Now your with her etc...

But as the music played I fell for this song! I am and always will be a BIG daddy's girl, and this song touched my heart. So much of it I can relate to my life, and my relationship with my ff. For instance as a child I had a "freckle face" (still do, ff LOVES them) and my Dad has know from the begining of J and my relationship that he was the one. By the end of the song I had tears in my eyes! I'm going to be an emotional wreck (happy tears) at our wedding.

This is def a top pick for the father daughter dance at my future wedding!!

Here are the lyrics...enjoy!

Look at the two of you dancing that way
Lost in the moment and each others face
So much in love your alone in this place
Like there’s nobody else in the world
I was enough for her not long ago
I was her number one
She told me so
and she still means the world to me
Just so you know
So be careful when you hold my girl
Time changes everything
Life must go on
and I’m not gonna stand in your way

Chorus:
But I Loved her first and I held her first
and a place in my heart I’ll always be hers
From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a father runs deep
and I prayed that she'd find you someday
but it still hard to give her away
I loved her first

How could that beautiful women with you
Be the same freckle face kid that I knew
The one that I read all those fairy tales to
and tucked into bed all those nights
and I knew the first time I saw you with her
It was only a matter of time

Chorus:
But I Loved her first and I held her first
and a place in my heart will always be hers
From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a father runs deep
and I prayed that she'd find you someday
but it still hard to give her away
I loved her first

From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a father runs deep
Someday you might know what I’m going through
When a miracle smiles up at you
I loved her first…
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